Today the 52nd episode of “Conversations With Matt Dwyer” will post on the very splendid Feral Audio. I must say that it feels very strange to hit this mark. I went into this show with an idea which quickly morphed changed and became something else. I now feel it is in the early stages of another metamorphosis and starting to take yet another new form. (More on that in a bit.)
That is what I really love about the show. That it is ever evolving. That as I go through another phase or a fascination with some aspect in life it will reflect in the show. It has given me a venue to explore my concerns fears and neurosis. It also has allowed me the opportunity to speak with some of the greatest minds of the past fifty years thus fueling my knowledge and hunger to explore various avenues in life I’d have ignored.
Seriously, I am baffled by how lucky I have been to talk to some of these people. What is stranger to me is that many of them have become my good friends. It is perplexing and a wonderful gift.
The list of people I could and should thank is insanely long. I’d leave people out, then learn I had done so thus leading me into an ever ending spiral of guilt. However, I can not thank Dustin Marshal enough for giving me a venue to explore my crazy obsessions. He works insanely hard, and is a wonderful beautiful loving human being who I feel is like family to me. I would also like to add (and I don’t think he sees it) but he is a visionary. I truly believe one day people will look back at Feral Audio and all the things that have spun out of it and be in pure awe.
I also owe Duncan Trussell thanks for encouraging me to get back into podcasting and for introducing me to Dustin. I was a bit lost and uncertain what direction my life was going in before all this so it saved my sanity.
I’d be a giant dick if I left out my dear friend Danielle Bernabe and her sister Michelle for assisting me in getting some of my best guests and one of my all time favorites former Black Panther Pete O’Neal. He was a true inspiration and continues to be so. Thanks ladies you’re real peaches.
Another couple of people I am greatly thankful for are Wayne and Margaret Saadi Kramer who not only have become dear friends, but have inspired encouraged and assisted me in getting some of my most legendary guests. (Boots Riley & John Sinclair to name a couple.)
There have been a great number of people who have donated money to the show. No matter what the sum it is nothing but beyond generous that individuals see it fit to give their hard earned cash to Feral Audio and myself. It not only helps us keep the show and site going, but encourages us and makes us feel we are doing something right. We thank you from our hearts.
I would also like to thank my lovely girlfriend Kelly Rose who has listened to my rantings, fears ramblings nonsense and garbage all the while smiling and being loving. Huazzah and hooray to her. She is the best and I love her dearly.
One last quick thanks goes out to one of my oldest friends Shane Bugbee who is an endless source of inspiration for his truth integrity and encouragement. I love him like a brother.
I didn’t really expect my show to get so political. I had a few guests that greatly inspired me to be more active, to learn more and to explore some of the things we don’t normally hear in the press. I honestly don’t know if I did a good job with this political aspect. I know I learned a lot and that at times it was really draining. I don’t know how some of the activists in this world do it on daily basis. It’s truly taxing and exhausting.
I am not certain if the show will be as political in the coming year. Recently I have been inspired by some artists and spiritual minded people that have made me think I want to explore something different. I am really interested in what makes people create. I wish to speak with more artists musicians and various performers to see what makes them tick. I wanna learn how they see the world and despite all the challenges they continue to make art no matter what.
I am forty-four years of age. I have spent a great many years being creative and have alway been in some sort of inner conflict about the world, myself and creativity. I don’t think there is a creative person in the world who doesn’t experience that yet I think for each artist it is a different conflict. I want to learn about that conflict and how one finds the ability to turn it into something wonderful.
I think that is something I also wish to explore on a psychological and spiritual level as well. What are the endless internal conflicts of humanity and what means can we go about to ease them.
I guess what I am saying is, I explored a lot of the external conflicts of life and now I wish to explore some more of the internal and see what that teaches me or more importantly, teaches us.
Thank you all very much. Let us love and be loved.